pathways

Comment

Comment by Cathrynn on September 2, 2008 at 8:15am

let me just add a little of what I mean by this - how a tragedy can perhaps be meant to be. Years ago now, I lost a child at birth, full term and much wanted - my third child. My husband and myself had much wanted a large family, but were not allowed to adopt because I had been ill - then our third son died and I became very ill with problems that lasted around a decade. However, when I came out of this illness, I had an intense spiritual experience and from then on my whole life changed - leading me into paths I wouldnt have dreamed of taking part in, or that I had talents for. I discovered I did. Because these opportunities happened so soon after this experience, it seemed as if everything was just opening before me into pathways I had never really thought of. When I look back, years later - I see that my intention to have around six children was not the pathway that God saw for me. I was to go through the intensity of loss and the following decade in order to prepare myself for the work I then did - and still do, but less now I am older. I always felt this work I did, with the blessing and support of my husband, was the work I needed to do in order to be gifted from God in becoming well again. I never made money, but we managed - but I have had a rich life indeed during those years - what is lovely is that my youngest son said to me the other day - well, you did have the eight children you initially wanted, didnt you. I have four granddaughters (four girls) and two sons, one grandson and the son I lost, who is dear to me still, so I had four sons too. So - in the end, it worked out..:) I wonder what my pathway is now........I think looking after my mother for the time being..:) ... the experience was so strong, that it lives with me always and makes we realise there is a pathway for us all, but sometimes our 'will' takes us into a different path - but I feel God gave me my 'children' as a lovely present for doing best I could with the pathway he gave me..... Cathrynn x

Comment by Cathrynn on August 28, 2008 at 4:27pm

I dont want to be the first one to add a comment here or a discussion, though I will if no-one else does..:)..........sometimes these signs are very subtle, arent they - we dont even realise that we are being moved into a different area in life at the time - it is only later ... but anyway, lets see where this group goes?